Wednesday, December 12, 2007

now what

I write this most likely for me. Sometimes I post about news, sometimes I post something to provoke thought... But right now, I post about me, for me, and, if the world doesn't end, for me to look back upon years from now.
The reason?

I just took my last college exam.

I keep saying the same thing, but that doesn't make the feeling go away. It hasn't yet sunk in that I will wake up tomorrow, the day after and the day after that without a class to go to, an exam to take, a book to read or a paper to write.
It's an interesting feeling having lived your whole life with a goal in mind, regardless of whether it was the right or wrong goal and regardless of who or what inspired you to yearn for it, one so big and so eminent that it engulfed all your energies whether you knew it or not, to one day realize that it's over.
The goal now has a checkmark next to it, written in permanent ink. I can't go back and do it again because it's over.
There's probably a big lesson on goals, achievements, purpose, direction, etc. in all of this, but, once again, it would be moot to try and theorize on this because, as of 7pm on 12 December 2007, I am the small fish in the big pond once again.
I will let the elders talk and I will do wise by listening.